19 Jan Still Arriving!! (Day 15 & 16)
Write my eulogy? Hmmm… Although inevitable the very thought of death still frightens me. I have experienced tremendous loss in my short lifetime and still grieve from time to time. I just don’t want to deal with my reality. It’s so easy for others to offer condolences and words of comfort yet they ricochet off the knife impaled in the bereaved’s heart. I read somewhere before that it’s the constant yearning that causes sadness. Where I am right now, today… knowing how much I am loved, I don’t want to face the thought. However, the ultimate eulogy for me would be the words, “well done my good and faithful servant.”
This week’s reset challenges were completed with mixed emotions. The one thing that I learned about myself that really struck me was my limiting belief. It made sense! Coming to realize that myself as superwoman was just as a fake as the character exposed all the things that had been hidden in this persona- my flaws. My mistakes and failures made me feel bad, made me beat up on myself, and wallow in my own self pity. Is it eliminated completely? Only time will tell but I’m optimistic! The 100 happy has been my favorite this week. Wow, it’s truly the simple things! My least favorite was as you all can probably discern was the eulogy… a work in progress! Reset has been very rewarding in so many ways thus far…Resetting-Refining, getting better with time.